Saturday: Oddly, I don’t feel deprived.
I don’t feel stressed or obsessing
over what I can and can’t eat.
Possibly it is because I have
worked with eating what I wanted,
when I was hungry, and even now,
I look at this as a year-long commitment, not a fast drop in weight.
It is about being healthy and
staying on the planet with Mitchell.
I calculate my recipes,
so you can do them too —
and when I actually write recipe
now I can give you the calories, if you care.
Apples are a gift from the gods.
Sunday: I made popsicles from our morning smoothie, berry flavor.
I have not tried it yet but how cool is that? It is so important to think about my
food early in the morning.
I don’t mean stress it, just think about it like I might think about what appointments I have, or how I will get across town at rush hour.
What will I be eating?
Do I have good food choices on hand?
I seem to mess up most when
I don’t have good choices at hand.
Making extra dinner makes day two lunches easier and yummy.
Mitchell doing this with me (though he eats a bit more obviously) also helps.
Monday: Tried a new way of
making a lower-fat fish Monday and we liked it enough to do a repeat tonight.
Thank the gods for hot pepper pesto.
Following up from yesterday,
I keep comparing these two weeks of dieting from experiences dieting before I worked a program to deal with my food issues. Control and moving toward a goal are different. Control is a set of self-imposed rules that do not take into account what life might throw at me.
There is a strong negative voice too.
A goal allows me to make choices daily.
It feels more spacious. Maybe I’m
simply older with a bit more wisdom.
I remember when my former husband had his heart attack. His doc spoke about a new eating lifestyle, and planning for the occasional lobster dinner or double cheeseburger.
I am 100% behind staying alive for Mitchell, and I believe that losing weight is part of that plan. I’m happy to do it, and I already feel better, which gives me more incentive.
Tuesday: I broke my diet plan today and it made no difference because I am not into withdrawal and so did not feel like a failure and so did not binge the rest of the day. Thank you Geneen Roth; your work really did change me.
I also have been noticing that I cannot live without some goat cheese.
Nothing satisfies like cheese.
Being satisfied is very important.
Twice this week friends asked me if
I’d lost weight without me telling them
I was on a diet. Pretty cool.
I feel better but do not have a scale so won’t know until I hit the doctor’s office.
I’ve decided to post twice a week, because otherwise the posts may be too long.
I don’t know if I can always do it — I work for a living! Wednesday & Sunday.
I will also post recipes as I get them worked out.
I’ve also been paying attention to another part of life that is akin to gratitude.
Paying attention is important. I’ve been asking myself these questions daily:
What surprised me?
What moved or touched me?
What inspired me?
I leave you with a great song for any sized woman who has a little rumba in her bum;
IF it doesn’t open you MUST go listen to this one!
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